thoughts a week before i'm gone.

this is going to be short and melodramatic but here it goes.
cried when my boyfriend hugged me
cried on a dance floor with my best friend
feelings that i haven't been a good enough daughter/sister/friend
excited for armenia
have insomnia
anxious to leave
ready to leave
excited to leave
spending too much money on crazy things i never thought i'd need
eating way too much food, (perhaps my thoughts are similar of that to a camel in regards to water) however have gained about 10 lbs- for once- just don't care.
even though these have been such intense feelings, i have not once gave a second thought or thought that i should stay home- yea right! see ya armenia- i'll be there in a week!

Graduation and other thoughts!

So, after 4 years in college, I am done. It's a really unbelievable feeling. This freedom but the stress that consumed with me in forms of looming tests, papers, and homework has been replaced with thoughts such as "What can I do with myself? What's going on for next week?" It's kind of overwhelming in a way that has college beat. So far, I've gotten 2 B's. I'm waiting for these last guys class, to get my grade. I'll be lucky to have a C. This guy was ridiculous. Completely subjective grades. We were judged on what we didn't have in our essays and exams and in complete disregard with what we did know. But whatever, I did the best I could, and that's all people should ever try to do. I think that's what all people should ever do in their life to achieve maximum happiness. Anyways, I'm going to try to let you all in on the past 4 years of my life....
Freshman year- was a year that all high school graduates are anticipating. Hopes of all A's, finding a boyfriend or girlfriend, going to a real college party, drinking, smoking, basically behaving in bad behavior in your first year away from Mom and Dad. I was unlike any other freshman. I failed one class, of course the easiest class in the world. I found a boyfriend in my dorm (which was lovely.... and convenient, (love you babe)), I missed my family more then I thought I would, I made friends, and started a life that would become who I am. Went to real college parties. Drank more hunch punch then any girl should drink. Found out what keg stands were. Went to football games just to scream like an idiot with all the other fans. Lived in a dorm room that should was not even big enough for 1 person to live in, let alone 2. Sometimes 3. Got thrown in the fountain on my birthday and on random days, for a total of 3 times that year.
Sophomore year- A year that has to be just a little more serious then freshman year. Did that. Took some classes with my boyfriend. Got mono. Thought I was going to die. Boyfriend (Nick) had to go to my classes for me on top of his. Sister (Denise) had to come up to take care of me. That mono was brought on by alcohol. Trouble trouble trouble. Drank again more then I should have. Lived with these 3 girls that were awful. Got a job on campus, working at Hardees. Yeah, that lasted about a month. I am a princess. Something that I think has changed. At least a little. Maybe that is wishful thinking. But sophomore year was a little bit more productive then freshman year. I think that I finally felt like a real student. And a new feeling that was brought on. I was incredibly annoyed by freshmen. They just don't know anything. Like I honestly knew any more then they did.
Junior year- This year was kind of a blur. Broke up with Nick. But as a result of that which occurred, about December 07, I applied to study in France and applied to the Peace Corps. That break up was the best thing for me ever. Dated other boys. Broke up with other boys. Still talked to Nick on a daily basis. Lived with a girl that was/is awesome. Went to parties. Painted more then I had any other year. Was a great feeling of creativity from living with that girl. This year was a nonchalant year. This year also had me going to Paris to study. This had to be one of the best points in my life, if not the best. I made life-long friends and really came into the person I am now. This just could not be put into this tiny blog, I wrote a book about my adventures there... It was over 100 pages long.
Senior year- This year was such an amazing year. I learned a lot. I spent time with so many of my friends that I know one day will be my brides maids. That's sometimes how I look at friends, If I'd ask them to be in my wedding. Took challenging classes. Nick and I are now back together now too. This year was just so good. I can't even begin to explain.. So, I won't.
While writing this and even after thinking about it, I can't tell you much of what I learned in school. However, I will by May 28th, have a diploma that proclaims that I am better qualified for jobs. All I know is I lived the most fulfilling 4 years of my life. I came to life in college. I will be returning to culinary school after the Peace Corps, in the hopes that I will be opening an organic bakery that is affordable.
Okay, that's enough reminiscence for tonight. I am getting closer to leaving for the Peace Corps, in spite of everything that has been going great for me in my life, today was an excited day. I am getting aquainted with Armenia, by means of the CD that the Peace Corps sent me. I want to stop reading about and just do it already. I can not wait. For training, I will be in a city named Charentsavan. QUite a lovely city, I google imaged it. On another note, I bought so much winter gear today. This Florida gal is getting ready to be frozen. I just hope that I can bring some guidance and help some people while I am there. Just one person helped, is something that I will be proud of. My job will be done. Here's the address in which I can receive mail for from June 1- July 10th. Once I get to my site, I'll put that address up. Here it is for now-
Victoria Sartori
School#6, 3 Rusov street, 8 district, Charentsavan Armenia, 2501


Have a good night all
Loves

Last week of real classes

So, this semester did not fit into my whole 4 years. It went way too fast. Almost ridiculously fast. It's almost like they knew I wanted to savoure this semester. Mais, that will not happen, for as I'm writing this, I'm starting my last week of undergraduate college classes EVER! Ok I should say last college undergrad or grad because frankly- I don't think I'll ever go to a college again. I want to go to patisserie school. I would like to eventually open up an organic bakery that sells yummy healthy things inexpensively. On another note, I leave for Armenia, end of next month. It's been pretty much blowing my mind. I keep trying to spend time with my loves. My family, the boyfriend( that is, when he shows up) :], Jillian, and really any other friends that I liked especially which is why I invited them all to my little shindig on graduation day. I wasn't going to walk but you know what? My college life wouldn't have happened with just me, I needed the help of my parents, whether it be financially, emotionally, or any other way. I'm doing it for them really. I thought I could have cared less but as it comes closer, I'm getting slightly more excited. I think my graduation speaker is not nearly as cool as FAMU's (that's the other school in town) They get to have Bill Clinton. I have some Army General, who I really don't care about. I'd only care if it was my brother. (He's in special forces) I get to see them (he and his family) in May also. I look forward to that. They have such an awesome little family. There's Cherie who seems to be the only sane person in teh house, my brother who most say i'm like him.... A lot. I don't see it but hey- whateves. Then there's Lexi, an amazingly bright little girl, well she's not so little anymore but I love that girl to death. And last but least there is A.J this kid ,no joke, thinks so outside the box. It's amazing. He wants to be a mailman. haha. It's been a while since I've seen them so out to El Paso Texas I go. I'll get some good Mexican food and get spend time with my loves. Dyed mes cheveux back to my more natural color from the bleach blond phase. Although it's a tad darker then my actual hair and I'm a *shuddersssss* a brunette. Brunettes suck. I prefer my blond hair which has progressively gotten darker since high school. Eh. Okay I need to go pick up my cap and gown and get going. Been up for an hour and I've done nada.
Ok
Hasta la vista loves!
<3

new people

So I've been talking a little bit to some kids I'll be with in Armenia- pretty exciting. They seem fun. Oh AND I go home tomorrow. Merci mon dieu. Ma familie est tres incroyable.!

I've joined the bandwagon

I am going to be blogging from now until I die. Okay, not seriously but I'm setting this up so it will be easy for friends and family to keep up to date with my life while in the peace corps and just in general. It's kind of bizarre that my life which has been pretty much the status quo- graduating high school; going to college directly after; finishing in 4 years.... blah blah blah. It's been pretty a pretty amazing trip thus far but my actions have been status quo. My life hasn't been but my actions have been. And after all this monotony, I'm finally going to be doing something worthwhile. Don't get me wrong-I wouldn't have changed my life for the past 4 years and I don't regret a single day but college is a stupid thing we have to do in order for people to take us seriously. Most people I know that are worth something either a.) didn't go to college b.) went but only to get that piece of paper that is supposed to signify that we're grown up now. College doesn't make you more intelligent. I love learning but I have a hard time doing it enclosed by 4 walls. It's even harder when the professors have not lived a life that makes them any credited to teach me things. Books amaze me, I read all the time but to learn things solely from a book is a joke. Going into the peace corps is both an amazing adventure and an amazing oppurtunity. I am finally going to be helping people and even if I don't change the world, I am going to be making some small difference in at least one life and that will make it worth it. I'm super excited that I'll be traveling to places I haven't been before. Okay I'm done. I have to go to class now. Thanks for reading my rambles. I fear this blog post will be nothing but! And don't forget we have the possibility to be happy and to be sad. Choose the right path.