I've really been on an amazing trip since I can remember. Even as a kid. It's been a trip that is helping me figure out who I am as a person. The kind of things that I want in my life. The things I don't. I'm figuring out which people are jewels in my life and others that are pains in my side. I'm seeing who people really are when no one's looking. It's unfortunate when those people who are supposed to be close to you end up being even more distant then a distant relative. I've seen good things in my life that I try to hold on until their time is up. I've seen bad things that have made me grow as a person. The thing I find most amazing is that at 23, I finally feel comfortable in my own skin. Of course, I'd like to be a few pounds lighter but I've been running every day and eating more sensibly. It's working out. But really, I have never felt so real and happy with who I am as a person. I know that there are some people who judge me and think I'm childish and have their nose in my business (yes, it still bothers me a little) but I don't care anymore. I am who I am. I've become this person and all that matters is that I'm happy. I can only imagine how much more together I'll have it when I'm 33. I think age is a wonderful thing. And also one more shout out is to my family. As much as I complain about living at home (it's still a drag) they have been beyond amazing. Completely supportive but as parents should, they play devil's advocate and ask the hard questions about decisions. I have a sister who puts up with all my moods and is a completely lovely human being. I really am so lucky to have the Sartori clan in my corner. They get me out of tickets, buy me black and white cookies and go to indie rock shows.
I know, I go back and forth so much with the job/further school thing but I've finally figured out. At least for the next 3 years! :] Nursing school it is.
I'm going to do my prerequisites at a local community college and then to a 4 year for the actual program. Hopefully at FSU. I love Tallahassee. That's one place that I am so happy to have lived in. But if not, maybe a little more pragmatic, UCF. We'll see. I'll be able to take 4 prereqs this fall! And then it's only 5 more classes. I'm well on my way. I want to specialize with either handicapped children, children or elders. I have time to figure that out. It's funny, I can't see myself doing much of anything for the rest of my life but being a nurse is something I really envision myself doing. I honestly can't believe I didn't think of this sooner. I probably wouldn't have valued or taken it seriously. That's what I did with my first degree. Stupid 18 year olds. :] Like I said, I'm so happy to be 23.
So life is good. I feel comfortable and completely on top of things with school and I think it's going to be good. And I'll be able to keep working at least this semester at my current location. I may have to change my availability or go back to being seasonal next one but we'll cross the bridge when we get to it.
So, I know I mentioned I have a sissy that goes with me to indie rock shows. This Thursday, we're going to see the Black Kids. It should be a great show. Lots of dancing and goood music. Not much more I could ask for. If you haven't heard of them. Definitely check them out. Silly, fun, light music.
Well, it's time for this lovely jobless girl to get some rest. Waking up early can be difficult if I stay up late. And I have to keep being consistent with my running otherwise ALL is lost! Now, if only I could go to Yoga!
Hearts and happiness for you guys.
Oh and sorry for the beginning rant! <3
Does anyone still read this? If you do, leave a comment. I'm totally curious.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
And away... we go...
So thing have been good. Not too much to report this week. Been working as little as possible. I know that's immature but I just can't bring myself to pick up more shifts and wear more stupid uniforms.Ah, this week, maybe I'll pick up some.
Life is good. I was just watching Away We Go. What an excellent movie. Long story short, it was about this couple who were about to have a child together finding out where they belong. It was really inspiring. However, I do have some sort of roots to Florida. I love it here. I really can't imagine living anywhere else. I am over Orlando. I want to be closer to the coast but I'm not sure I'll settle down anywhere other then hot,sticky,muggy,mosquito and tourist infested Florida.
I've been running everyday. I'm really proud of myself, I don't really commit well to anything. My habits are never constant but this is one for thing that I've really been committing to. Today, I'm going to be organizing my dressers(yes, plural, I have 2. They annoy me to no end) Hopefully, after I'll go to IKEA and get new knobs for the one. I wanted to spray paint one of them but my Mom had a fit.
Don't really have anything life changing to add. I go to a nursing school orientation on the 29th and I'm going to a concert on July 1st. It's the Black Kids and they're playing at the Social. Should be fun! Enjoy a lazy Sunday with people you love. :]
Life is good. I was just watching Away We Go. What an excellent movie. Long story short, it was about this couple who were about to have a child together finding out where they belong. It was really inspiring. However, I do have some sort of roots to Florida. I love it here. I really can't imagine living anywhere else. I am over Orlando. I want to be closer to the coast but I'm not sure I'll settle down anywhere other then hot,sticky,muggy,mosquito and tourist infested Florida.
I've been running everyday. I'm really proud of myself, I don't really commit well to anything. My habits are never constant but this is one for thing that I've really been committing to. Today, I'm going to be organizing my dressers(yes, plural, I have 2. They annoy me to no end) Hopefully, after I'll go to IKEA and get new knobs for the one. I wanted to spray paint one of them but my Mom had a fit.
Don't really have anything life changing to add. I go to a nursing school orientation on the 29th and I'm going to a concert on July 1st. It's the Black Kids and they're playing at the Social. Should be fun! Enjoy a lazy Sunday with people you love. :]
Sunday, June 20, 2010
ramblings from my disjointed thought process...
So, again I've been such a bad blogger. And I wish I could offer up a better excuse but really, there is no good excuse. I've been in a malaise. In other words, I've been lazy. It's amazing how things become such habit. In fact, the sad part about my not updating the blog is not because I haven't been on but more because I was wasting my life. I feel that is the greatest offence to the lives that we are given, to merely survive and not live. Just the thought makes me shudder. And the whole month of June even though the weather is lovely and hot, I've been so down and lackadaisical. But within the last 2 weeks, that's started to turn around.
I've started running almost every day. Let me tell you, as much as it may seem like it's a drag, it's the best thing I could have done for myself at the moment. It's something I completely control. I'm waking up early in the morning to do it before it gets too hot and therefore am not sleeping in late. I've been eating better. And not only am I feeling better but I'm losing weight. On a slight tangent, I have to add that I've been using Crest 3D white-strips. The effects are A-mazing.. I am completely surprised.
Today is Father's Day. I have to admit, my dear ole' Pops gets on my nerves to no end but let me tell you, that man has love for all of us. I think the reason he does what he does is so we don't forget about him. Like we ever could. But I think that's what it is, to feel he is still part of the game plan. Let me just give you an example of the most recent things he's done to protect one of us.
I got a ticket from Orlando Stops. If you don't know what that is, it's complete bullshit. It's a private company that likes to collect for the city of Orlando for people who run the light. Now, that's fine but there are things that a computer can't take into consideration, like the fact that 2 parades were going on therefore many streets were closed. That being said, there were cops down the entire street I was driving down had Orange County Deputies were on each corner waving people through. So, a week after that happened I received a ticket in the mail. I was furious. I called the Police Dept. and found out what their men were out there for. I found out and I appealed my ticket. I was told I still had to come in for court. So 2 months later, I went into court to plead my case. (I can't believe that our tax payers money pay for this nonsense, especially since the first lady said she had never done it before and that the ticket was a lesson to her. She said that since then, she wasn't going to be running any more lights ever. I could not believe this lady had the gall to stand before the judge to say that. Needless to say, she was told that they can't make an exception for her.)
When it was my turn, I had all my paper work together. Also the papers about the parades going on. There was an OPD officer who was there to testify if needed. He apparently needed to jump in to tell me that there was no police officer there. I told him the officer was there was from the Sheriff's Dept not OPD. He still insisted that there was no officer there. The hearing judge was just about to tell me that she also couldn't make an exception for me until my Pop popped up and asked if he could speak. The hearing officer- being a real smartass said "were you there?" And my Dad said "No, but the car's in my name" And he was off, I was mortified. I thought punches were going to fly between Deputy Dickwad and my Dad. So instead of having to pay $155.00 (rightfully so) I received a letter in the mail a day after waiving my fee. I was so glad. The real reason why I didn't have to pay was because of my Dad. Plain and simple. As mortified as I was, it's nice to have someone have your back so much.
So since the last time I blogged I've been on a few job interviews. Been offered positions. However, long story short, after much deliberation. I've decided to go back to school to become an RN. Now, this was just figured out today, so I don't have all the details but I know that I don't want to work as an atypical nurse in a hospital/Dr's office. I want to work with either handicapped children or elders in a rehabilitation sense. I want to help these people grow. I feel like that would be the most rewarding thing for me personally. But I'm willing to work my way there. I've already made an appt with Valencia to see what I can do. However, I'm under the impression that at age 24, I would qualify for free education from Obama-man, seeing as I have no viable income to speak of. Who knew that would come to help me in the long run. So I may just go to UCF or other 4 year institution. I'll have to see what works better for me and get all the details.
After my court day, I bought a new guitar seeing as my blue one from Armenia was only capable of producing good firewood. I've been teaching myself that but I'm going to go to a couple of classes to learn how to read tablature properly. And I'm going to take Spanish classes.
So long story short, life is good. It's becoming more and more real and grown up and I'm happy to finally have that!
Keep the smiles on your face. Release endorphins and love one another.
I've started running almost every day. Let me tell you, as much as it may seem like it's a drag, it's the best thing I could have done for myself at the moment. It's something I completely control. I'm waking up early in the morning to do it before it gets too hot and therefore am not sleeping in late. I've been eating better. And not only am I feeling better but I'm losing weight. On a slight tangent, I have to add that I've been using Crest 3D white-strips. The effects are A-mazing.. I am completely surprised.
Today is Father's Day. I have to admit, my dear ole' Pops gets on my nerves to no end but let me tell you, that man has love for all of us. I think the reason he does what he does is so we don't forget about him. Like we ever could. But I think that's what it is, to feel he is still part of the game plan. Let me just give you an example of the most recent things he's done to protect one of us.
I got a ticket from Orlando Stops. If you don't know what that is, it's complete bullshit. It's a private company that likes to collect for the city of Orlando for people who run the light. Now, that's fine but there are things that a computer can't take into consideration, like the fact that 2 parades were going on therefore many streets were closed. That being said, there were cops down the entire street I was driving down had Orange County Deputies were on each corner waving people through. So, a week after that happened I received a ticket in the mail. I was furious. I called the Police Dept. and found out what their men were out there for. I found out and I appealed my ticket. I was told I still had to come in for court. So 2 months later, I went into court to plead my case. (I can't believe that our tax payers money pay for this nonsense, especially since the first lady said she had never done it before and that the ticket was a lesson to her. She said that since then, she wasn't going to be running any more lights ever. I could not believe this lady had the gall to stand before the judge to say that. Needless to say, she was told that they can't make an exception for her.)
When it was my turn, I had all my paper work together. Also the papers about the parades going on. There was an OPD officer who was there to testify if needed. He apparently needed to jump in to tell me that there was no police officer there. I told him the officer was there was from the Sheriff's Dept not OPD. He still insisted that there was no officer there. The hearing judge was just about to tell me that she also couldn't make an exception for me until my Pop popped up and asked if he could speak. The hearing officer- being a real smartass said "were you there?" And my Dad said "No, but the car's in my name" And he was off, I was mortified. I thought punches were going to fly between Deputy Dickwad and my Dad. So instead of having to pay $155.00 (rightfully so) I received a letter in the mail a day after waiving my fee. I was so glad. The real reason why I didn't have to pay was because of my Dad. Plain and simple. As mortified as I was, it's nice to have someone have your back so much.
So since the last time I blogged I've been on a few job interviews. Been offered positions. However, long story short, after much deliberation. I've decided to go back to school to become an RN. Now, this was just figured out today, so I don't have all the details but I know that I don't want to work as an atypical nurse in a hospital/Dr's office. I want to work with either handicapped children or elders in a rehabilitation sense. I want to help these people grow. I feel like that would be the most rewarding thing for me personally. But I'm willing to work my way there. I've already made an appt with Valencia to see what I can do. However, I'm under the impression that at age 24, I would qualify for free education from Obama-man, seeing as I have no viable income to speak of. Who knew that would come to help me in the long run. So I may just go to UCF or other 4 year institution. I'll have to see what works better for me and get all the details.
After my court day, I bought a new guitar seeing as my blue one from Armenia was only capable of producing good firewood. I've been teaching myself that but I'm going to go to a couple of classes to learn how to read tablature properly. And I'm going to take Spanish classes.
So long story short, life is good. It's becoming more and more real and grown up and I'm happy to finally have that!
Keep the smiles on your face. Release endorphins and love one another.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
just go with the seasons...
I know, I've been a terrible blogger. And the thing is, I've had lots of things on my mind. I just haven't taken the time to sit and write these thoughts. Today though, has reminded of the the broad spectrum of emotions. I'm in the lows today. I had almost forgotten them. I won't dwell on the low-points in life because it is fleeting. (let's hope so) It seems though, that the only thing my brain wants to do is sit around and do nothing but then I obsess in my head about how I am not doing anything and then I get uneasy and it's just a terrible cycle but it is what makes me, me. So, I will sit around and watch bad television and divulge my inner need to do nothing at least until I have to go to work. The thing is it's not laziness. I want to get up, put on some real clothes and do work, or go for a run or be creative but I just can't. It's amazing for as advanced as we are, we are just a slave to our emotions. And we always will be. I just wish I knew why it comes around.
And then it pours down rain in the sun; in the middle of the afternoon; with hundreds of white puffy clouds in the background.
Ah, enough about that. So, I had the interview in Tampa. I'm pretty sure I secured a second interview. Also, through another friend in Tampa, have another job interview which would be excellent money. But then, here in my current job, I was approached by the head of catering and conventions to a possible position in the conventions arena. I would be working with people and setting up things from the transportation to the food, to the venue, basically taking care of these guests' needs. Something that although isn't helping the world would be really interesting and fun and most importantly creative. So now, I'm torn as to what would truly be the best move for me. I know the right one will come to me. But for right now, this need to find a job and be so ordinary is kinda slightly killing me. I wish I could just go off in search of something. I don't even know what I would be looking for but what I do know is that I need to explore. Cursory glance to my life, I have all that I need. But, still, there is something missing. Maybe one day this thirst will vanish and I can be okay with living an average life because after all, life is what we make it and I think that no matter how "average" my life is, I doubt I'll let it ever be average but I don't want to be delusional either. :]
Oh life, And now the sun is shinning even brighter as if to say "eff you rain, I'm much better then you"
My life since May 19, has been great. Hanging out with good friends.
Saw SATC 2 with Nick.
Overall, life's been swell.
Ok, I'm going to continue laying around. Hopefully no one will bother me. I'll blog a more sunny version of myself soon!
<3
And then it pours down rain in the sun; in the middle of the afternoon; with hundreds of white puffy clouds in the background.
Ah, enough about that. So, I had the interview in Tampa. I'm pretty sure I secured a second interview. Also, through another friend in Tampa, have another job interview which would be excellent money. But then, here in my current job, I was approached by the head of catering and conventions to a possible position in the conventions arena. I would be working with people and setting up things from the transportation to the food, to the venue, basically taking care of these guests' needs. Something that although isn't helping the world would be really interesting and fun and most importantly creative. So now, I'm torn as to what would truly be the best move for me. I know the right one will come to me. But for right now, this need to find a job and be so ordinary is kinda slightly killing me. I wish I could just go off in search of something. I don't even know what I would be looking for but what I do know is that I need to explore. Cursory glance to my life, I have all that I need. But, still, there is something missing. Maybe one day this thirst will vanish and I can be okay with living an average life because after all, life is what we make it and I think that no matter how "average" my life is, I doubt I'll let it ever be average but I don't want to be delusional either. :]
Oh life, And now the sun is shinning even brighter as if to say "eff you rain, I'm much better then you"
My life since May 19, has been great. Hanging out with good friends.
Saw SATC 2 with Nick.
Overall, life's been swell.
Ok, I'm going to continue laying around. Hopefully no one will bother me. I'll blog a more sunny version of myself soon!
<3
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