this quote equates my life. It really does. One of my problems and greatest fortes is in my infatuous nature. I know infatuous isn't actually a word but it fits how I am. I get so attached to feelings, people, places and events in my life that I forget to acknowledge the important things. Remaining centered and doing the things that are important to me. I get so wrapped up in my emotions about things that I don't realize the actuality of events, people, places and feelings.
I let my feelings get the best of me. I love that I am like that. I love that I try to live deeply. However, living deeply with every whim and fancy that I have takes me away from reality. I have created a false sense of reality. I am on the road to self-realization and finding my balance in my life. I have certain ideas about how to do it but they all involve me, essentially running away. Although it's immensely attractive to pack my things up and explore and just go until I'm done, doing so would take me away from my family and friends who are such pillars in my craziness that is my life.
Through yoga, prayer, meditation, exercising my body and mind, and time spent with family and friends, I have found peace. But that peace is fleeting at the sight of a passion. I'm not sure how to restrain myself yet. In a way I'm glad I don't. If I were to live my life entirely how I imagine it to be, I think that would push me closer to death because we aren't perfect. Nothing and nobody is perfect in this world. It's what we do with what we're given that creates our ideas of perfection. I'm not even sure I'd ever want to restrain myself. That's such a strong word and I'm not sure we should ever truly limit ourselves.
On another tangent, watched Eat Pray Love, it was a pretty awful movie because I feel like in her finding herself, she had to run away to do it and who can really just escape their lives for a year in foreign places but regardless, it made me realize that I had a bit in common with the main character. I was also impressed with the people that impacted her life through out the film. In my life, I would like to only ever surround myself with people that possess a certain joie de vivre. They change my life and challenge me. I'm thankful for all interactions with those people no matter how impermanent they are. And the ones that aren't just wilt away and I never wish them unhappiness but I certainly try to never waste our time or emotion trying to make what we "have" into something. No matter how lonely I get. That's unfair to all involved. And something I am not quite good at yet. :]
Now, that I am in a thoughtful;thankful;peaceful sort of mood- I bid all 2 readers goodnight. Sleep well and find what makes you happy.
