I've really been on an amazing trip since I can remember. Even as a kid. It's been a trip that is helping me figure out who I am as a person. The kind of things that I want in my life. The things I don't. I'm figuring out which people are jewels in my life and others that are pains in my side. I'm seeing who people really are when no one's looking. It's unfortunate when those people who are supposed to be close to you end up being even more distant then a distant relative. I've seen good things in my life that I try to hold on until their time is up. I've seen bad things that have made me grow as a person. The thing I find most amazing is that at 23, I finally feel comfortable in my own skin. Of course, I'd like to be a few pounds lighter but I've been running every day and eating more sensibly. It's working out. But really, I have never felt so real and happy with who I am as a person. I know that there are some people who judge me and think I'm childish and have their nose in my business (yes, it still bothers me a little) but I don't care anymore. I am who I am. I've become this person and all that matters is that I'm happy. I can only imagine how much more together I'll have it when I'm 33. I think age is a wonderful thing. And also one more shout out is to my family. As much as I complain about living at home (it's still a drag) they have been beyond amazing. Completely supportive but as parents should, they play devil's advocate and ask the hard questions about decisions. I have a sister who puts up with all my moods and is a completely lovely human being. I really am so lucky to have the Sartori clan in my corner. They get me out of tickets, buy me black and white cookies and go to indie rock shows.
I know, I go back and forth so much with the job/further school thing but I've finally figured out. At least for the next 3 years! :] Nursing school it is.
I'm going to do my prerequisites at a local community college and then to a 4 year for the actual program. Hopefully at FSU. I love Tallahassee. That's one place that I am so happy to have lived in. But if not, maybe a little more pragmatic, UCF. We'll see. I'll be able to take 4 prereqs this fall! And then it's only 5 more classes. I'm well on my way. I want to specialize with either handicapped children, children or elders. I have time to figure that out. It's funny, I can't see myself doing much of anything for the rest of my life but being a nurse is something I really envision myself doing. I honestly can't believe I didn't think of this sooner. I probably wouldn't have valued or taken it seriously. That's what I did with my first degree. Stupid 18 year olds. :] Like I said, I'm so happy to be 23.
So life is good. I feel comfortable and completely on top of things with school and I think it's going to be good. And I'll be able to keep working at least this semester at my current location. I may have to change my availability or go back to being seasonal next one but we'll cross the bridge when we get to it.
So, I know I mentioned I have a sissy that goes with me to indie rock shows. This Thursday, we're going to see the Black Kids. It should be a great show. Lots of dancing and goood music. Not much more I could ask for. If you haven't heard of them. Definitely check them out. Silly, fun, light music.
Well, it's time for this lovely jobless girl to get some rest. Waking up early can be difficult if I stay up late. And I have to keep being consistent with my running otherwise ALL is lost! Now, if only I could go to Yoga!
Hearts and happiness for you guys.
Oh and sorry for the beginning rant! <3
Does anyone still read this? If you do, leave a comment. I'm totally curious.
