here's a song for lovers, who don't care if they don't sleep

I want to share a quote that kind of makes things in our lives that's not perfect, quite alright."There is a crack in everything / That is how the light gets in". It kind of offers us reassurance because, let's face it. We make mistakes every day that we're alive. And I mean that essentially that's what life is. We make mistakes, we try to fix our mistakes in the time before we make another mistake. We're not supposed to be perfect. It makes it seem like whatever you're doing, it's alright. The light is the redeeming factor in our being.

So Halloween has come and gone. I'm sick again! Yuck. Halloween was super fun. I went as a girl from Dia de Los Muertos. It was so much fun to put on all that makeup. It was a slight fiasco though. We had called a taxi at around 9:45 because we were planning on drinking. By 11:50, still no taxi, so we decided to drive. So I didn't drink too much which makes me happy. I spent like 3 days at Baby Girl's house. It was super fun! And we ended up running into Jesus which was nice. We had no idea it would be like the Mass Exodus downtown.
We only had 3 trick-or-treaters. What is the world coming to? I understand you want your kids to be safe but they're miss out on so much by not partaking in this ritual. You should go with them, I just don't understand it.

Speaking of alcohol, I have such a love hate relationship with alcohol. There are parts of me that really enjoy drinking, the tipsiness and warm feeling that is my reaction but then there's this other part of me that is never proud, the day after.I also hate how unhealthy it is and and even unhappy with things that I may have said or done while under the influence.

Life is good. I have started studying for the FTCE. I'm really excited about this decision. I kind of can't believe I didn't think of it sooner.
My room's been clean, I've been trying to be a good friend, sister and daughter. I haven't been exercising because I've been sick nor have I been eating healthy. I also, haven't been going to yoga. But I suppose if my life was completely in order and I was doing all that I should be doing that something awful would happen in order to make it balanced.

Started reading Anna Karenina. What an excellent and intriguing book. I've been trying to keep up with reading good books. So, I don't lose my vocabulary.

Well I need to run to the store to grab some pro-biotic pills. Take care of yourselves. <3 you

And skipping over the ocean like a stone...

I've been so erratic with this blogging. I apologize. It's not even that I don't have things to write about, I just haven't. But that's all changing now. As I write this, there is a slight breeze through my open window- my sheer pink curtains blowing in and out, the smell of pumpkin spice in my room,a hot cup of silver needle tea and some birdies playing in the tree out in front of my window. I just took an hour long bath while listening to the top 40 countdown. I haven't took that long of a bath in ages and I haven't listened to the countdown since Casey Kasem did it.

Life has been surprising, and good.


Today, I'm still getting over being sick. But I beat it to the punch. I took good care of myself and as a result have had a speedy recovery.!

It's been a whirlwind tour of friends visiting and just living. Ly Ly essentially lives at my house. It's nice to have a new sister! My Nisey, (real sister) has a broken foot and consequently has to wear this awful air cast thing. She's recovering but tells everyone it's my fault. It most assuredly was not. She tells them though that I ran her foot over with a shopping cart. I grazed her foot and she is just delusional.
Recently my Jilly came to visit. As always it was so nice to visit. It was a little off though and I wondered about it. And I finally figured it out. We're at total different points in our lives and as a result we're just having a bit of a disconnect. However, unlike our friendship, it won't last forever. All relationships go through things. And at the risk of sounding sappy, we love and appreciate one another for who we are so I know we'll still be friends once this aberration is over.

Been seeing a lot more of Baby Girl. However, due to my recent bout of illness, I'm back to my ole tricks again of canceling on her. At least it was a for real reason.

I'm still single and mingling. I still have yet to meet someone offline. Yes, I'll admit it. I've joined an online dating website. Apparently it's what the cool kids are doing. All my closet friends, have made one. I just feel like it's so inorganic. But I have been meeting people in real life. They've been surprising and I'm enjoying it. I've never really just dated. I get so excited and happy with someone that I typically jump into a relationship with people.

I think the problem with me not finding the right guy or the right job are the same reasons. Rather then focusing on the type of job or guy I want. I'm focusing on the now. I prefer it this was because rather then looking at the end result, I'm enjoying my now. I know it won't last forever. I know eventually some job and guy will tie me down and I'm okay with that but I'm enjoying just drifting at the moment. I just hope I won't be sucked into a life of endless drifting. Eventually I'd like to have a real job and a real guy. I think another problem of living and floating in the now is that, for me, I have no idea what would make me happy, in a job or a guy. I have intangible ideas. I want to be happy, I want to have a meaningful job, I want to have depth with a guy, I want a decent guy, I want to help people, I think I'd like to work with kids, I want warmth, No ickiness and none of what I've had in the past. Well, at least with respect to guys.

I try not to make that the focus of my life though. I just try to be an on the level type of girl. I know eventually all that will come into my life when it's time. I try to live a life of balance of my body, mind and soul. It's working, I think. I'm eating healthier then usual, still running, doing yoga, praying and meditating, and taking care of the people I love. That gives my life a little fulfillment and purpose.

This Sunday is the reason I know there is something above us. Life is what it is and it's good.

it doesn't count until you go to sleep and wake up.

So, judging by the title of my blog. It's not really my birthday until I go to sleep and wake up in the morning. But really, I'm 24. Or at least will be by the time I'm done with this blog. I wanted to update it because I've got a lot on my mind and in my heart.

I will be 24. I have never been 24 before and I will never again be 23. I feel like when it's your birthday that your life kind of starts over. Like a new year, this is more personal and is your very own fresh start. I am so looking forward to it. There's this quote.I'm going to butcher it but you'll get the idea. It's about finding out who you are or what you're supposed to do but rather it's about the everyday living. That's who you become. I love that quote. That was the gist of it, essentially. As cliche as it is Life is not about the destination but rather the journey. Since I'm spewing my "homespun" philosophies. I'm going to add this one. Your perspectives become a reality.

But really, this new year is going to be the best one. 24 is promising and holds so much. Working my way up or getting into a real job. Continuing the healthy streak I've been on and continue losing weight. Stop passing opportunities up and being a bump on a log which is so easy to become. Especially in our world in which living is easy. (Not to semi-quote Sublime)

But really, Life is good. (6 minutes until my birthday) Watching the Office, got my sissy next to me and my family is all good. That is all for now. Well really, I feel like I need to continue writing until it's actually midnight and officially my birthday.

I'll let you guys in on the birthday plans. Tomorrow- leaving the house at 6:15am to go do a 5k for the American Heart Association. Which is a group close to my heart. Then grabbing some breakfast and heading to a cemetery where I will partake in my ritual. Then it's home for some nice family time until my friends come over for a big dinner that my great Pop will prepare. Oh and ps- when I walked in the house tonight my Mom and sissy decorated the house so nice for my day. So after our big feast, us girls will head downtown where drinking and getting into trouble will begin. :] It'll be the best!

That being said, this morning was in the 60's and I went for a delicious hour long run in the nature preserve and found the ultimate dress and shoes for the birthday extravaganza. But I'm even more excited about the weather changing though. The current storm is sucking out moisture so humidity.

Oh and received great presents from my sister in law, brother and their most adorable children ever. Those kids are growing up faster then you could imagine. And got the VERY best birthday card all the way from Armenia. Made me miss him and Armenia even more. <3

Okay, it's midnight. Goodnight. Love yous. and Happy Birthday to me!!!! :]