So life has been interesting. Today was pretty terrible but not really. It was like tropical depression weather but it was nice because I went for a run during the usual hottest part of the day. And I sweated my ass off. I like that. I feel like when I sweat I get all the toxins out of my system. I know it's probably not true but it makes me feel better.
So my car, my Rambo is officially dying. Today, I was on my way to yoga to calm my mind and Rambo started doing whatever it is that it's doing. :/ I've had so many memories in that car. First makeout, adventures, road trips, hanging out with best friends over the years. Since I was 16. And tomorrow I will be test driving Cobalts. I'm pretty excited about it though. I guess I need a car with this new part of my life. I'm kind of a grownup now. I just thought I'd have a year or 2 left. Guess not. But it'll be okay. I'm going to have to work my ass off to make payments for it. Lucky for me, they have great incentives going on at Chevrolet. I know that I will be getting a good job within the next few months. I just know it. Because it can't get any worse then my job right now. :] And I've still been applying like crazy. I will get my foot into some door. But, for the meantime, I'm working the next 2 weeks straight. It will be good $$$$ Even if I do, this winter, the belts will be worn tighter. Because I am still losing weight and because I will not be wasting money on anything other then my credit card, my new car, and insurance! Yowsa. Good thing I know where the cheap/free drinks are.
Speaking of great incentives. I've been a vegetarian for years and as of yesterday I've decided to be vegan. It's been fun so far. The only dairy thing I'm eating is Greek yogurt. For the protein and the probiotics. But I had soy ice cream yesterday and a vegan grilled cheese today. Tastes a lot better then you would think. Speaking of vegan, I know what I'm going to be getting for my half sleeve. It's going to be a phoenix with flowers and vines and pretty colors. That's going to be my birthday present from my family. (Yes, my mother is thrilled---sarcasm) I've been reading good books lately. I finished Killing Yourself to Live by Chuck Kloseterman. I also am rereading The Moon and Sixpence by Maugham. It has one of my all time favorite quotes. "I saw its ordered happiness, but a fever in my blood asked for a wilder course. There seemed to me something alarming in such easy delights. In my heart was a desire to live more dangerously. I was not unprepared for jagged rocks and treacherous shoals if i could only have change- change and the excitement of the unforeseen"
Really. Just love it.
Just like I love life. Things are rough sometimes but that's just a way to remind us of our humility and not to get too ahead of ourselves. And I appreciate that. See ya at I-Bar on Thursday!!!
Oh, wanna know something funny? I have a secret defense that I have. I find it amusing. I have "fuck you outfits". When I want to go out and just have fun with my friends and be crazy and obtuse. I wear my glasses and a random outfit and it's fun to kind of dare men to come up and talk to me. I like to see who comes over. It's pretty immature but it makes me and my friends laugh.
