hang on little tomato....

a lifetime has happened since I last wrote in this blog and in an effort to not be too backward-looking. I’ll create a bullet list of what has happened since March 7, 2011

• Broke up with the lover that was referenced at this time.
• Started law school
• Met a boy in law school
• Got engaged to boy from law school
• New little person was born. (nephew#1)
• Graduated law school
• Got our own lover’s oasis
• Second little person was born (nephew #2)
• Married boy from law school
• Went on epic honeymoon
• Fell into the routine of life
• Turned an apartment into a home
• Fell into a rhythm of married life
• Started not “not trying” for our own little stardust
• Celebrated 1 year of marriage
• Went on more epic trips
• Worked and figured out adulting
• Spent endless amounts of time with my beautiful family (whom I still live approx.. 5 mins from)
• Continue trying for our little bit of stardust.
• Celebrated 2nd year of marriage
• Started fertility treatments
• Fell more in love with the life I have despite no stardust.
• Celebrated 3rd year of marriage.

It’s funny looking back at these old blog posts. I never thought I could love the life I have as much as I do. I’m still in my head way too often but I’m loving the somewhat calm waters of my life.
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This post has been 3 days in the making and it’s funny how much can change in the span of 2 days from when I was writing this.
 But I can now join so many other would-be mommies but can now add to the list of what has happened since I wrote last.

 • miscarriage or an ectopic pregnancy.

 I won’t know until more tests are done. I haven’t really told anyone and loving the anonymity of the blogosphere so I will take advantage of it and talk about this here until I’m ready to tell others. If you happen to be close to me and I didn’t tell you about this. Please don’t be offended. I’m not ready to really talk/talk about it until I know everything and I won’t know anything more until tomorrow afternoon after some more blood work.

 So, that being said, the whole point of starting up the old blog is because I’m doing this 365 day happiness challenge. I thought it would be fun to stick to something until my next birthday and see how far I’ve come. I’ll post a link to challenge here. Not all things cost money, in fact most do not. So far,
 • I have worn my favorite things on my actual birthday. It consisted of one of my favorite purple dresses and a unicorn crown and these great pink chandelier earrings from Target.
• And I have written in my gratitude journal. I am changing this from start a gratitude journal to write in one since I already own one that I try to write in regularly.
• Today, for day 3, post-birthday, I am “starting” a blog or rather breathing life into an old one.


 So, I will cut this entry a little short. Feeling a lot of feelings today and I want to honor them and feel them all to properly move on and look to the sunny horizon. Wishing you all the love and light in the world. Even though it’ll likely only be my mother reading this. 😊