wake up kids, we've got the dreamer's disease

I feel like that's my lot in life. I have the dreamer's disease. I'm constantly daydreaming. How I'm going to decorate my office, next trip we're going to take, what our future baby will look like, what fun activities we can do with our 2 little nephews, what fun things we can do that cost no money.
It's a constant for me. And honestly, I wouldn't want it any other way because it's the dreams that keep me going.

Although, I can't lie, since we've lost the baby, as far as dreaming songs go, I cannot listen to A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makes or When you Wish Upon a Star. They kind of break my heart just slightly. And forget Baby Mine from Dumbo. I'll be a puddle on the floor. Same with the song Where the Lost Things Go. Having a super big presence in our darling nephew's life, we listen to Disney songs constantly. Although, to be fair, we'd probably listen to that music sometimes anyway.

Anyway, I haven't found the happiness challenge being too much of a challenge yet. So, that's good. However, they are running together and I'm having trouble keeping track when I think back. So that will be my challenge this week. To try to be more present with these tasks. I think it's just a little bit of depression. But I feel like with what my body and soul have been through in 2 weeks, that's to be expected.
Since I last wrote, I have completed

• Day 10 - Kiss Someone - that was with the Boy from Law School.
• Day 11 - Binge on a TV show - Fleabag. If you haven't watched yet. You are missing out. I had binged this back when Season 2 had come out but I wanted to share it with the Boy from Law School and since we ended up binging it in the course of a day and half, I'd say he was into it as well. I just love Phoebe Waller-Bridge. Her wit and being are just incredible. And don't get me started on the Hot Priest.
• Day 12 - High Five Someone- Took the little nephews to Sea World to partake in their Spook-tacular and needless to say this was awesome. I knew I wanted to high five someone today and it happened so authentically and spontaneously that I didn't even notice it until Boy from Law School pointed it out. I explained what littering was after we saw a boy do it and told them how bad it was for the environment and they were really into saving the Earth and taking good care of Her that they gave me high fives. It was such a pure little moment that I really enjoyed.
• Day 13 - Listen to an Upbeat playlist - thank you Amazon Music. 
• Day 14 - Take a Deep Breath - I took a bath and focused on my breath. 
• Day 15 - Talk to a co-worker you've never spoken to - Talked to a surveyor I've never talked to before. He was helping set up my new office so that worked. 
• Day 16 - Watch a TedTalk - I thought I would like this. I chose ones on happiness but I was not really into it. Maybe because I did it at work and couldn't actually watch so I just listened. And I feel like everyone knows how I feel about being talked at.
• Day 17 - Play Free Online Game - Googled best free mobile games.  Alto's Journey is amazing. It's a minimalist game that is super low-key and not super addicting so the perfect kind of game.
• Day 18 - Surprise someone you love with a gift - bought the Boy from Law School a GooglePlay giftcard for a mobile game that he enjoys that I kind of hate that he spends time on but I know he thoroughly enjoys 
• Day 19 - Have a cartoon-watching marathon - one of the little munchkins wanted to spend time with me and the Boy from Law School. So, in an effort to get him to nap, I put on cartoons on my tablet in bed. Did he nap? No. Did we switch through 7 different cartoon shows in the span of an hour and half? Yes. So, I inadvertently checked off another Happiness challenge.

This weekend was good. Gone too quick and I can already feel the Sunday Scaries but I'm going to try to watch only happy stuff and cuddle with the Boy from Law School to try to quell the Sunday scaries and set me up to have a good week at work. 

Hope you all have a great rest of your night and that the Sunday Scaries don't ruin the rest of your day.

Also, been trying to plan an anxiety-inducing roadtrip because everyone and their mother has been offering their advice on how to move past the miscarriage and taking a small trip together seems to be what everyone says.

However, we're saving for a home and have been incredibly dedicated; thus the anxiety.

So, if anyone has any ideas for a quick, inexpensive trip, shout 'em out in the comments.

We were thinking Asheville, NC for a quick road trip to enjoy all of the Fall things. 

Love and Light to you all.

xoxox