this ain't no reggae party....

So, I've been successfully trained at my job. It wasn't hard and at a couple of points, I had to help my trainer. Something I realized 2 days ago. I had fallen into a funk. It's been pretty nasty. I've been less then kind to my family. I've started to become lethargic and not eating healthy again. Basically, I was just becoming a negative person but I'm proud to say that after some thoughts about where my life was headed, I pulled back out. I feel great again. It's just hard sometimes, especially when your life isn't going the way you thought it would. I have to say that I don't plan things but there are just some things you didn't think you would be doing but that just shows why you shouldn't have any expectations.

Me, being in that funk wasn't conducive for anyone. As bitter as I was, it equally stressed out my lovely family and quite frankly was driving me crazy. But you know, as my Pop says, nothing is forever. Sometimes you just have to take things day by day and do what you can to make your future better.

So I've made peace with my situation, (crappy job, single, living at home. with no real prospects---just in case you forgot what I had been complaining about :] )

Something that I've thought of lately though which I hope you find as amusing as I do. My whole life has become something of one giant interview. You know? Each actual interview I go on, each potential significant other. They're both interviews.

For the jobs, the questions that go through my head during job hunting and interviewing

"Will this job make me happy?"

"Will I actually be doing something that's worthwhile, that I can care about deeply?"

"Is my boss going to be a douche?"

"Will it help me save up to go to baking school in Paris(because God knows I can't afford that until I pack away the $$$$$$$$?"

"Will it help me to move out in a while(( I LOVE my family but I like living alone and I don't want to be too far away from them but I want to live by the coast(particularly St. Petersburg/ Gulf coast))?"

For the person thing, the questions that go through my head when I'm hunting and/or "interviewing" on a date.

"Will we be able to maximize each other's happiness?"

"Will I have to take care of you?"

"Do you use proper grammar?" (yes, there will be written test at the end of this date)

"Will you make me uncomfortable, embarrassed or any other bad feeling on a daily basis?"

"Are you going to be a good lover?"

"Are you a decent and good person that has some passion for something?"

and last but not least

"ARE YOU A GROWNUP"'

It just makes me laugh because I constantly feel like I'm interviewing.

On another note I'm going to be taking art classes(because I have no technique) and Spanish classes soon.

Ok, my sissy and I are going to Animal Kingdom today. Love that place...

Thinking beachy thoughts today.

Be well!