What a dreadfully gloomy day. This weekend has been great. This week since Tuesday has been great. Today a little off but that's life. I just have people that I care about greatly that are going through things and I can't help but feel sadness for them. I empathize with their situations. And I hate that there is nothing that I can do to make anything better. But that's that. I won't make what they're going through about me. I'd hate to let my sentimentality force them into comforting me. Which obviously was never my intention. I hate when people make what other people are going through about them. So, anyways, today was kind of a bummer.
Went with AVN and Jilly to Kelly Park, Rock Springs. One of my absolute favorite places in the world. However, the weather decided to not cooperate. The water was closed when we first got there, so rather then pay to wait there, we went to a biker bar where we sat and thought with our beers in our hands. It was an interesting event. There were some red necks there, of course at 11:30am on Sunday morning. They were a little bit annoying. One of them made an off-hand comment about Mexicans. I just hate when people who don't know any better say comments that are offensive and typically have no backing. I know, we all make the occasional off-color remarks or jokes but that's around friends, not said loudly and obnoxiously. Well, anyways, it just really upsets me when people do things like that. Like, who do you think you are? I don't think anyone is better then anyone else and to say something, even in jest in front of people you don't know is just wrong. I really wanted to say something. But I didn't. Luckily enough though, they almost made up for their ignorance: They stopped us on our way out of the door. This gentlemen who was missing a few teeth said "Ya'll are new around here, aren't ya?" I answered him swiftly with "We've been here before" He then proceeds to go on about "safe nuts" and how we needed them. They were the best and local. So this gentleman goes out and comes back and he gives Jilly one of the nuts. He makes her crack it open and the shell goes everywhere... on the table instead of a nut was a condom!! Get it? A "safe nut". I could not stop laughing after that.
We left to go to the park. It was opened. We had to find the right spot to sit, there was some discerning opinions as to where we were going to sit, we eventually found the "right spot" I then jumped in while the other two, thought about it. I wouldn't and will still not admit it in person but it was beyond cold but sometimes it's so nice to have that jolt, that intense experience/sensation.
After 15-20 mins in the water, we all got kicked out due to lightning. We sat there for maybe 45 mins hoping they'd let us back in. They didn't so we left. It ended up being a big damper on the day.
But the rest of this week has been sublime. Tuesday I worked- LAME. Weds- I had a job interview with events and convention planning at a resort near me in the same company I'm working at now. Would be a good move, much better money, fun times and the chance to move out of my parent's home which is what I need to do. But it's still not what I want for all time. I want to make a difference for my job. I want my life to be worth something. All the other exciting times this week have been spent with AVN and it's been so wonderful. Everything has been happening so fast, and, I'll be honest, it's a little scary. But I'm not going to over-think things - It's just amazing how people can complicate things but over-thinking.
This weekend has been great. Jilly came for the weekend since I didn't have to work this weekend. Hung out with LyLy on Friday. Jilly and I spent the weekend just being lazy, going to the Enzian, getting into trouble, you know? The usual.
In other news, GO ESPANA!!!!
Life is good. I'm tired but things are good. <3
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